My Life

Success

2007-03-03T20:50:00.000-08:00

It was a well fought semester to achieve the triple Ps we aimed for.
With all blessings from above and support from family members, friends and lecturers, we gave it our all to go against stress, agony and pressure in the face of EXAMS.
Denying previous history and statistics regarding internus and results, we stood up firm on our belief and faith in pursuing our dreams with unshaken will and courage.
There were times where we felt fluctuations in our confidence and self-esteem, yet we struggled on with uneditable images of failing in our minds, which in turn became motivation in a way.
Mood swings from exam to exam, from subject to subject, from theory to practical, from practical to viva list, from viva list to official results.
Conquering every occasion with victory seems to be an unrealistic statement for a medical student and passing might sound just as common to non-medical students out there.
But in our hearts, only we who had felt it can really understand it.
On 1st March 2007, I received a call from Hua Min telling me the news which would lift my spirit up above heaven. As i rushed out of the Algate Hotel lobby to adjust a better reception for the handphone, I heard 'Robin, we all passed!'...the events taking place after that statement need no further elaboration..............

i dont wanna miss a thing...

2006-09-27T05:21:00.000-07:00

palmar hyperhidrosis will not affect my life... i want to hold u in my arms... with.. christmas cArOl singing at the background... i will frame this perfect picture up and grow old wit u... u r all tat i want.. i cant believe tat this is true.... i'm in heaven.....

my favourite roasted chicken.. i love u...

p/s: i'm really in love.. i wan this to be real. i wan it to last....

在人群中見到柔弱的她，牽起她冰冷的小手，讓她依偎在我瘦削但充滿力量的肩膀上。。
不要因為也許會改變，就不肯說那句美麗的誓言。不要因為也許會分離，就不敢求一次傾心的相遇。

Chill la ppl...

2006-08-10T05:28:00.000-07:00

hahah okok...u all dun wan see my nike logo rite..k la k la...actually i tink its not necessary for me to post any pics here lor...coz everyone's page oso got the return pics...hahah so...i will blog about my hols so far...

OK...once we reached KLIA...the first place we went was to the TOILET...then I went to buy my brother's stuffs...(Bailey's and cigarettes)...oni Bailey's is for himself whereas the rest is for his frens...then we went to collect our luggages and went to meet up with our parents...hahhaa..i saw HASSAN in the carpark..fated huh? (looking for my zapping racquet to zap houseflies)...

Admiring the roads in Malaysia while telling parents about MANIPAL...reached home and become Santa Claus...its good to see everyone again and HEALTHY...then i slept for a while and then went to a new Thai restaurant to eat with family...and after so long time without steam fish..its jz like paradise here...then i went to buy SUIKODEN 5 , the ps2 game i wanted to play all this while in manipal..unfortunattely it was released in march after we left fo r manipal..i skipped dinner as i slept off...

The following days, i ate hokkien mee, dim sum, seafood, chinese food, homecook food, tuna, ham, burger king, mc Ds...blablabla......hawkers..

then today, my grandma went for Xray on her back and blood test results were collected..i remembered the time b4 i left for manipal..i went for blood checkup as well and most of the crap in it i could not understand..but now...i know wat is ALT, ALP, AST, MCH , MCHC, PCV....and the radiology..it was so clear..my grandma's spine has deviated to the left and compressing the nerves..tats y her legs are weak nowadays..but the doctors did not encourage operation..

Shud i put a reebok logo up? or mayb an adidas?

What does Nike say?

2006-07-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

Sooner or later, you start taking yourself seriously.
You know when you need a break.
You know when you need a rest.
You know what to get worked up about and what to get rid of.
And you know when it's time to take care of yourself, for yourself.
To do something that makes you stronger, faster, more complete.
Because you know it's never too late to have a life.
And never too late to change one.

Just Do It !

Laws of Success

2006-07-16T06:00:00.000-07:00

Do you want something ? -- Will you pay the price?
The great sin -- Gossip.
The great crippler -- Fear.
The greatest mistake -- Giving up.
The most satisfying experience -- Doing your duty first.
The best action -- Keep the mind clear and judgement good.
The greatest blessing -- Good health.
The biggest fool - The man who lies to himself.
The great gamble -- Substituting hope for facts.
The most certain thing in life -- Change.
The greatest joy -- Being needed.
The cleverest man -- The one who does what he thinks is right.
The most potent force -- Positive thinking.
The greatest opportunity -- The next one.
The greatest thought -- God.
The greatest victory -- Victory over self.
The best play -- Successful work.
The greatest handicap -- Egotism.
The most expensive indulgence -- Hate.
The most dangerous man -- The liar
The most ridiculous trait -- False pride.
The greatest loss -- Loss of self confidence.
The greatest need -- Common sense.

The Stupidest Thing To Do...

2006-07-15T03:49:00.000-07:00

wats urs answer to the title?

Well, my answer will be GIVING UP! ok you might tell me, my chances in accomplishing this task is like 0.001 %, i might as well give up and not waste my time rite?
Let me tell you something, even with that 0.001% there is still HOPE...and that HOPE can be converted into MIRACLES...i define a miracle as something done when u absolutely do not expect it to happen ..
Sometimes, miracles are not jz magical wonders send down from heaven, but it is done with our own hands, our own capabilities....moreover most of the time, our chances are definitely more than 0.001%...
So never tell me you are gonna give up anymore!! anyone of u....

Sir Winston Churchill took three years getting through eighth grade because he had trouble learning English. It seems ironic that years later Oxford University asked him to address its commencement exercises. He arrived with his usual props. A cigar, a cane and a top hat accompanied Churchill wherever he went. As Churchill approached the podium, the crowd rose in appreciative applause. With unmatched dignity, he settled the crowd and stood confident before his admirers. Removing the cigar and carefully placing the top hat on the podium, Churchill gazed at his waiting audience. Authority rang in Churchill's voice as he shouted, "Never give up!" Several seconds passed before he rose to his toes and repeated: "Never give up!" His words thundered in their ears. There was a deafening silence as Churchill reached for his hat and cigar, steadied himself with his cane and left the platform. His commencement address was finished.

Bend but don't break

One of my fondest memories as a child is going by the river and sitting idly on the bank. There I would enjoy the peace and quiet, watch the water rush downstream, and listen to the chirps of birds and the rustling of leaves in the trees. I would also watch the bamboo trees bend under pressure from the wind and watch them return gracefully to their upright or original position after the wind had died down.

When I think about the bamboo tree's ability to bounce back or return to it's original position, the word resilience comes to mind. When used in reference to a person this word means the ability to readily recover from shock, depression or any other situation that stretches the limits of a person's emotions.

Have you ever felt like you are about to snap? Have you ever felt like you are at your breaking point? Thankfully, you have survived the experience to live to talk about it.
During the experience you probably felt a mix of emotions that threatened your health. You felt emotionally drained, mentally exhausted and you most likely endured unpleasant physical symptoms.

Life is a mixture of good times and bad times, happy moments and unhappy moments. The next time you are experiencing one of those bad times or unhappy moments that take you close to your breaking point, bend but don't break. Try your best not to let the situation get the best of you.

A measure of hope will take you through the unpleasant ordeal. With hope for a better tomorrow or a better situation, things may not be as bad as they seem to be. The unpleasant ordeal may be easier to deal with if the end result is worth having.
If the going gets tough and you are at your breaking point, show resilience. Like the bamboo tree, bend, but don't break!

End Pt trip PART 2

2006-07-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

Yoyoyoyo...this time, I went end point wif my frens for a picnic! And it was ssoooooooooo nice...all those who went know why RITEEEE?? but this trip made a turning point of our perception towards a very CLOSE DEAR FREN...coz he started this damn MATURED debate about our HORSES....okla enuff of himla..

After we makan in mess, we all went back to our hostel(New AC) to deposit our belongings in the store room...oops i mean Yu Wei's room...then we went to our hehehe(i can't say it here) and each one went in 2s...Joon Keat and I were the first to reached followed by Yu Wei and Hua Min, and then Kc and Kizzy...But ler..one couple was missing in action wor...it was FU YEW and MOONFACE(hehe jk la tze hau) coz their petrol ran out(hohoho vespa hohoho)..So Kc and I went to buy the petrol for them but we forgotten bout the TT oil...and alas we all managed to reach the peak of END POINT...and my photo shoot began with KIT SZE as my photographer, YU WEI as camera sponsor and DRESSER(thanks for ur lab coat kc)..

Here are the results...

We met the dean here twice oredi...tat dean ar...so free come here everyday..

Gaya ler...thanks to my skillful photographer KIZZY and of coz the nice lab coat from KC

dunno y the pics not uploading d...mayb will continues later..

AKAN BERSAMBUNG SELEPAS INI...

Survey

2006-06-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

7 things that scares me
- Cockcroaches and creepy crawlers
- Signing block 1 histo in block 2
- Studying a whole subj in a day b4 exam
- Failing in exams(touchwood)
- Insufficient chun girls in the batch you are studying
- Disappointing parents
- Mandarin

7 things i like most about myself
- Confident and always aiming high
- I like planning!!
- Cool-tempered
- Can play many types of sports
- Never giving up attitude
- Able to get along well with friends
- My eyes (DAMMMNNN BIGGGG)

7 most important things in my room (As refer to my room in New Ac Hostel)
- My Laptop
- Netter's
- TIssue paper(guys know wat it is use 4 rite?)
- Mortein
- Bathroom
- Mirror
- Water

7 random facts about myself
- My palm sweats
- Fear that the girl i like mind bout my hands
- I am grateful to be able to see a new day everyday
- Always do histo last minute
- Friends have high priority in my priority list
- Cannot concentrate well during lectures unless I really push myself
- I can't speak mandarin but I am improving

7 things i can do
- screw you up with lame jokes
- Study still 4am for a week
- Score more than 20 goals in a 2 hour futsal game
- Motivate myself in few minutes
- Waste time
- dunno
- dunno

7 things i can't do
- Speak mandarin
- Beat fu yew in badminton yet
- Memorise Chaurasia
- Sing well
- Mix well with too oriental chinese background ppl
- Go into casino
- Sleep with mosquitos

7 things i say the most
- Fuck you la!
- Niasing
- Hey
- Steady?
- Wo bu hui zhang hua yi la
- Stressla
- 2 half boil eggs with 3 plain toast bread

7 celebrity crushes
- Zhang Zi Yi
- Jennifer Anniston
- Sharapova
- Chaurasia
- Kelly Clarkson
- Ayumi(lol)
- Dunno liao la...

7 things i hate most bout me
- Can't talk much with the person I like
- Get upset when don't reach expectation
- Can't speak mandarin
- First wrong impression bout ppl
- My sweaty hands
- Last minute do-er
- Not getting a girl I really like

7 people i would love to see doing this
- Kumar
- Casey
- Hua Min
- Kit Sze
- Khai Meng
- Ian
- Joon Keat

Upset...

2006-06-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that sometimes the result you obtain was not worth your effort? Have you ever felt so confident and sure in getting something but it just comes out the opposite?

I am sure you all felt this way b4...

I am talking bout my Biochem results..I found the paper EASY after I did it..at first I was very happy that I have got oni 3 mistakes, but after checking the answers with Joon keat's paper, I found out I have 7 mistakes. It's disappointing as I even skipped anat dissection to study.

HAIHZZZZZZZZZZ...........LANCAU LANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your Value...

2006-06-20T11:59:00.000-07:00

A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.He then asked, "Who still wants it?"Still the hands were up in the air."Well," he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special - Don't ever forget it!

Plan

2006-06-17T00:34:00.000-07:00

Since the cause of not doing well in block 1 has been discovered, I am goin to proceed to plan a WINNING SIMULATION for block 2...

1) First thing first, this block's main priority is STUDIES

2) Study consistently everyday for 4 hrs

3) Going to MEMORISE more instead of keep on reading(dreaming). It is a true fact that most of us start reading and slowly our concentration wane away, and at the end of the day...wat do we get? we sit in front of the book for 6 hrs and we claimed we studies DAMNNNNNN hard...

4)For block 1, my mantra was, "Come what may, Be what might"
For BLOCK 2, it is, "If it is to be, it is up to me."

5) Not going to be distracted by unneccasary things...entertainment not included

I will add more to this list and time passes as I will know which and what to improve on...

Pussycat boys!!!

2006-06-17T00:28:00.000-07:00

YOU ALL MUST WATCH THIS MAN...YOU ARE GONNA LAUGH UR ASS OFF MAN!! wahahahahhahahahahahhahhaah....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf8GhG6xXbo&search=pussycat%20dolls

faster faster faster!!!

Topless in Physio prac..

2006-06-15T22:42:00.000-07:00

Niacin 20 mg!! My mentor, James Gonsalves came for physio prac today and we learnt about respiratory examination..And he picked me as the subject to be presented in front of the class..Firstly I was reluctant to go but as there were no other volunteers who was willing to take up the task, as well as the the mentor's insist, I had no choice but to unbutton my shirt and go up to this DAMMMNNNN GOOODD mentor..It wasn't really cold in front but I was nervous and I started to sweat..I am a person who sweats at times...But then again, sometimes i just sweat although i don't feel nervous. Maybe mentally i don't feel the nervous feeling, but my body does and reacts in the sympathetic way, that is to sweat...

Haihzzz...everyone got their own problems....

Never ever give up...

2006-06-14T08:57:00.000-07:00

We all should never give up on our way to our goals!! even though it might seem as though we will fail for sure!! with persistence, intensive and sustained effort, we will get out successfully!!

Eg of ppl who never give up:
1) Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team.
2) Isaac Newton did poorly in grade school.
3) A newspaper editor fired Walt Disney because he had no good ideas.
4) Beethoven's music teacher once said of him "as a composer he is hopeless."
5) Low Chin Aun was told by his mentor, James Gonsalves that his results were all as good as fail

A lesson from End Point....

2006-06-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

Jz yesterday which was 13th June 2006, I went to End Point jz to have sometime alone. For the passed few days, I did not feel as energetic as I used to be, and everytime I entered my room, there is some sort of pressure telling me that I have to study...and once I start reading and don't understand a certain statement, I start getting frustrated...

As I sat down on a rock and look down at the green scenery with the lake reflecting the glow of the setting sun, I start questioning myself WHY i am acting in such a manner..and the answers i got was:

1) Did not perform up to what is expected of myself
2) Tremendous pressure to perform well in Block 2
3) Can't manage my time well...distractions(TVB series and Q-ball)
4) Somebody...

The soft wind blew at my face as though trying to remove fatigue off my body. Looking at a view which i will not get in KL, i told myself..THERE IS A DAMN BIG WORLD OUTSIDE TO EXPLORE...my problems are as minute as cells seen under a histology slide. As I stood up and walk towards my splendour, i know there is only one way to continue from where I left off...that is..

To stand up on my own and fight again once more for what i believe in....

Current Situation

2006-03-12T02:23:00.000-08:00

OK...this is how things are for now...I am now in India and it is much worse compared to my expectations...The word running through my mind when I saw the place was,"fucccckkkkkkk".Its like a fucking desert. ALRIGHT! I know i am not supposed to curse here but fuck man. However, I am starting to adapt to the place and beginning to like my room. The seniors are so so so helpful and friendly which I am very glad about and the food are tasty as well. Well, we hear rumours that people engage in food poisoning and so on but I am still fine after drinking there teh tarik and bandung. Well the nicest place I went to so far is the library. Its really huge. Besides that, the lecture hall is just few metres away from my hostel, so I can actually wake up 5 minutes b4 class begin and still can get there in time. Now its really dusty and hot down here but there is one thing which wonders me here...my hands do not sweat here..People who are close to me should know how much my palms sweat normally.
B4 reaching here:
Well on the way to KLIA, I forgotten to bring the bankdraft so have to make a U-turn and go back home to retrieve it. Later, reached there and saw Kumar, checked in and then Ian came all the way from Kota Damansara..and to my surprise i saw Ping Syen, Pin Sze, Siow Cherng and Mei Sin. Well THANKS to all who came. Then my sis was playing wif them and we took few pictures. Then it was time to leave..my sis was hugging me and i saw Mei Sin and Siow cherng crying. First time i passes the departure gate and then went into the waiting lounge. Then finally board the plane, and they serve alcohol in it but my frens did not alliow me to drink..bloody hell...
In India:
reached bangalore at nite and took a bus filled wif fucking mosquitos to central park hotel where we stayed for the nite. In the morning when I woke up, It was DAM DAMN cold...i put 3 layers over me and I was still shivering. Then later we departed to Mangalore..It looks like a desert in the movies..the n we took a 2 hr bus ride to MANIPAL...and it sux

Mixed Feelings

2006-03-07T07:09:00.000-08:00

Today was kinda bz. I went to get the bank draft with my mum and then went to 1U to buy kettle and travellers pouch. For the past few days I couldn't really sleep cos as soon as I lie down on my bed, I think bout the future in India and in my house after i leave. My feelings are mixed. After my grandmother visited me on sunday, she told me in hokkien."mai kek sim(dun susah hati) mai kek sim," i nearly broke into tears. Mayb i jz a too senstive and emotional soul. But I know in the end things will come out well as I mould my own future and I am gonna make it a great one!

Wisdom from Patch

2006-03-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

Notes for Concerned Medical Students
by Patch Adams, M.D.

Medical education can be a stressful experience. For some, the academics seem gargantuan, for others the costs are stifling. But the most disconcerting feedback is the feedback that is centered around a depression and anxiety over the kind of climate in which health care is practiced in today's society. It is hard to find a joyous service-oriented practice in hospitals. So often it appears that economics and management come before patient care. Competition seems to be more the style than cooperation among health professionals.

This guide is created for the medical student who wishes a thrilling, joyous, heartfelt medical education in exuberant anticipation of a life in service to humankind.

Inherent in helping others is an intoxication of self-satisfaction in a garland of intimacy. The keys here are to assert your own motivation and to respect your wisdom... indeed to be bathed in the self-confidence that you can make your life a delightful adventure. We offer a few suggestions here to make your education a highlight of your life. Please share your feedback, suggestions, and dialogue with us and your contemporaries in creating a medical celebration.

Don't wait until you are on the wards to practice and develop your interviewing skills... start now! Interview everyone with as great a depth as you dare. Medicine's fundamental thrill is intimacy. Find that kind of demeanor in yourself that delights others so they tell you their tales Be ecstatic for the gift that people give you in love, trust and intimacy. Find a way to let this journey together stimulate you and fill you with the excitement of a new friend.
As you explore the glorious mechanisms of your body and life, let it electrify you in wonder and curiosity. Never get complacent over the miracle of life. Live in awe. Let this be the focus of your education...not your grades, which tell you nothing about the kind of doctor you will be. (When I was in medical school, I told them never to notify me about my grades unless I failed... which became very freeing.)
Do not let the cost of education paralyze you. It is a privilege that you are so fortunate to be in school. When you finish you will pay your loans back as soon as you can. If you choose service-oriented Medicine, its gift is payback enough until funds come in. Don't let the debt trap you in a repugnant practice. Here creativity and exploration make great playmates. There is no debtor's prison. Community support can be key here.
Cultivate intimacy with the health professionals and professors you respect. Invite yourself to their homes. Establish a thriving dialogue. Ask to come into their practice. Reach out for the same intimacy with aides, orderlies and nurses as you do with doctors and patients. The word here is friendliness, wherever you go in life; it will make your day thrilling.
Please have support groups. Support in study. Support in play. Find like minds and fantasize your medical interests and futures. Practice being very deep and intimate with each other. Hold nothing back.
Please get involved in the politics of Medicine from the very beginning. Belong to the American Holistic Medical Association (AHMA), American Medical Student Association (AMSA), Office of Student Representatives (OSR) of the Association of American Medical Colleges, the American Medical Association (AMA), the American Academy of Family Physicians (AAFP), etc. Go to the meetings, especially the big ones, and talk with everyone. There is gold everywhere. Many are thinking about the same things you are. Your fantasy Medical practice may sprout in this climate.
Yes, fantasize your most outlandish Medical fantasy. Your degree in Medicine is the freedom to choose exactly how you want to practice. The only limiting factors will be your fears and imagination. Band together and soar.
Focus on Medicine as service. Medicine as a business is hurting everyone. The rewards in Medicine are in helping others and in self-discovery. Giving is an intoxication, intimacy is a by-product. Brace yourself for an avalanche of love.
This is a whopper. Have outside interests! You are not a doctor. You are a person who has studied Medicine. You are all of your other interests just as well. Nurture all of your loves. Experiment with ways of integrating your interests with you Medicine. Weave these interests into the relationships you have with your patients. Be open to learning things from them... you will love the bonds that form.
Finally, do not sacrifice your family for your Medical career. What you learn in keeping your family vibrant will serve you greatly with your patients. Please cherish your significant others, your lovers, your children, your parents, and feel the great health their love fives you. See your friends as a part of your family.

Anyone can be a dr.!

2006-03-01T06:35:00.000-08:00

A doctor can be simply defined as a person who holds a MBBS or MD degree. That means as long as you finish your five year course and pass all the exams, you can call yourself a doctor. BUT that also means that as long as a student puts all his time in studies, he is a doctor! BUT WHAT IS THE POINT! The main things about doctors is not the grades which matters, it is how you handle your career professionally and see beyond what you learn as the disease-symptoms-cure materials. We must take into consideration the feelings and emotions of patients and not simply give them medicine just to heal a certain illness. There is more to studies that knowing how the body works!

Closer and Closer...

2006-02-28T07:22:00.000-08:00

Its getting really close to the day i leave MALAYSIA and reach for INDIA. Somehow the closer it gets, the heavier my heart becomes to leave. I had great memories with friends from high school and college life, but most importantly I am goin to miss my family. The house is going to be real quiet as my bro and I will be overseas and my dad will be back only on weekends. Hopefully my sis and mum can cope with this change, anyhow we had spent the whole life together, and this is the first time we are parting for a period of time.

I really appreciate all the support of my friends when I was at the downturns of life(January 2006) where I was faced with problems in entering a medical uni. But most IMPORTANTLY, I am really thankful and glad that my FAMILY was so encouraging and did so much for me to enter my medical uni. My MUM was really the person who dwelled on every detail and called up the medical unis SO MANY TIMES trying to know the updates. My DAD came in with his words of wisdoms and fundings for my studies. My SIBLINGS were always there to cheer me up and being understanding of the situation. With all these efforts and sacrifices given to me, I will commit and dedicate my results in MMMC to them where I will put in more than I have ever done for anything in my life. This I believe is the only way I can come back and face them and say, "I'm here all thanks to u all and your efforts were never in vain as I am the proof of the outcome."

I THANK U ALL!!!!

Dream Cars

2006-02-25T08:01:00.000-08:00

Mazda RX8 Picture

Nissan 350Z Picture

Subaru Impreza (MY FAVOURITE)

How Abnormal Are I?

2006-02-25T07:38:00.000-08:00

I Am 8% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul.

You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

2006-02-25T07:28:00.000-08:00

You Are a Peacemaker Soul You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.

While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.

Your Deadly Sins

2006-02-25T06:54:00.000-08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 60%

Pride: 40%

Gluttony: 20%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Sloth: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 23%

Future!

2006-02-23T08:34:00.001-08:00

Academic Goals

2006-02-23T00:12:00.000-08:00

For Now:

Patch Adams

2006-02-22T23:21:00.000-08:00

WOW! Jz watched Patch Adams acted by Robin Williams. That show is so meaningful and shows another perspective of the medical career. After meeting my teachers in secondary school and reading through medical articles, I actually thought of changing my personality to a more serious person. However after watching this movie, I think I will follow his footsteps and be myself although I m studying medicine. I will change my working habit to a more positive one but will never change my cheerful and happy personality.

Some important things I learn from the movie :
1) Why do you want to pursue medicine?
Coz i want to connect with patients
Improve quality of patients' lives

2) In curing a disease, there is always winning and losing and you might cause the patient to die or to heal. However if you always make the patient laugh and feel happy, you always win!

MY DREAM

2006-02-22T20:28:00.000-08:00

Work

2006-02-22T20:21:00.000-08:00

"Whatever you do, do it with all your might. Work at it, early and late, in season and out of season, not leaving a stone unturned, and never deferring for a single hour that which can be done just as well as now."
P. T. Barnum

"Throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours." -Dale Carnegie-

"Live each day like its your last – make the most out of every moment."

Mistakes

2006-02-22T19:21:00.000-08:00

"You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space."
Johnny Cash

"There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth -- not going all the way, and not starting."
Buddha

The greater the difficulty, the more glory in surmounting it.

NO More Procrastination!!!

2006-02-22T19:13:00.000-08:00

"Never leave that till tomorrow which you can do today."
Benjamin Franklin

"Begin while others are procrastinating.
Work while others are wishing.
William Arthur Ward

"Don't wait for extraordinary circumstance to do good; try to use ordinary situations."
Charles Richter

"Know the true value of time; snatch, seize, and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness; no laziness; no procrastination; never put off till tomorrow what you can do today."
Lord Chesterfield

"It takes the efforts of many to make impossible feats possible."

Centering

2006-02-22T19:06:00.000-08:00

Simple Breath Awareness

While involved in whatever you are doing, bring some attention to your breathing for just a few moments... it needn't be your full attention... just enough to bring you back to your calm center. Breathe naturally, or perhaps just a little more slowly and deeply.

Reclaiming Your Energy

When you are feeling stressed and scattered, take several slow, deep breaths. With each in-breath, imagine you are pulling all of your scattered energy and attention back to your inner self... your calm center.

Letting Go

This centering technique combines breath awareness with the phrase or mantra, "Let go." It is especially helpful when you are tense and/or fixating on a stressful situation or a negative thought or emotion.
As you inhale, (silently or aloud) say, "Let"
As you exhale, say "go"... while letting go of all that is stressing you.

Inner Sun

Imagine a bright sun filling your heart chakra... the calm, subtle energy field that permeates your chest area. Imagine that sun gently emanating peace and joy throughout your entire being.

Steps of Energy Healing Meditation

2006-02-22T19:03:00.000-08:00

1. Sit reasonably straight and close your eyes.

2. Breath slowly, as silently as possible.

3. As you inhale, feel yourself breathing the healing Life Force in through your solar plexus. Picture this Life Force as a very refined, light energy.

4. As you exhale, gently direct this light energy to the afflicted area. If there is not a specific ailing area, disperse this light energy throughout your body as you exhale.

5. Continue until you feel the area has received enough Life Force.

Meditation / Relaxation

2006-02-22T18:57:00.000-08:00

http://www.learningmeditation.com/room.htm

A Way to Trigger Self-Confidence

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Scan all your memories of your entire life, and pick out a time when you were feeling really great!

HEAR the voices.
SEE yourself at the moment
see and FEEL your pleasure
SEE and HEAR the smiles of the others around you.

Say to yourself, as loud as you can inside our own head:

I remember the time when ....

I'm reexperiencing those wonderful feelings RIGHT NOW!

I'm turning myself ON!

Repeat to yourself every day:

I win every day!

It's not over...till I get what I want!

Winners...

2006-02-22T08:14:00.000-08:00

A WINNER always starts from where he is now with a fresh attitude.

A WINNER controls his own attitude.

A WINNER says "It may be difficult, but it's possible!"

Live daringly, boldly, fearlessly. Taste the relish to be found in competition - in having put forth the best within you.

The Simplest Formula for Success

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Follow Winners, Avoid Losers.

Before doing anything....

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Let's start with straightening your spine.

Lift your shoulders and your chin up!

Take a nice deep breath and get that chest up high! (enter the sound of your deep inhaling)

Let your breath out when you want to.

Put a smile on those lips!

Put a gleam in those eyes!

ABC

2006-02-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

To Achieve Your Dreams,
Remember Your ABCs

by Wanda Carter

A -void negative sources, people, things and habits.

B -elieve in yourself.

C -onsider things from every angle.

D -on't give up and don't give in.

E -njoy life today: yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come.

F -amily and Friends are hidden treasures. Seek them and enjoy their riches.

G -ive more than you planned to give.

H -ang on to your dreams.

I -gnore those who try to discourage you.

J -ust do it!

K -eep on trying, no matter how hard it seems. It will get better.

L -ove yourself first and foremost.

M -ake it happen.

N -ever lie, cheat, or steal. Always strike a fair deal.

O -pen your eyes and see things as they really are.

P -ractice makes perfect.

Q -uitters never win and winners never quit.

R -ead, study and learn about everything important in your life.

S -top procrastinating.

T -ake control of your own destiny.

U -nderstand yourself in order to better understand others.

V -isualize it.

W -ant it more than anything.

X -ccelerate your efforts.

Y -ou are unique of all of Nature's creations. Nothing can replace you.

Z -ero in on your target, and go for it!!

5 Steps To Change Any Habit

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Step 1: Write down specifically what you are trying to do and by when.

Step 2: What are the obstacles?

Step 3: WRITE a plan to overcome EACH obstacle.

Step 4: List the benefits to you.

Step 5: Is it worth it?

Success is on ongoing journey... not a destination.

The only time you fail is when you quit or never get up after falling down.

The Habit of Identity

2006-02-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

In a famous experiment, students were asked to take a lemon home and to get used to it. Three days later, they were able to single out “their” lemon from a pile of rather similar ones. They seemed to have bonded. Is this the true meaning of love, bonding, coupling? Do we simply get used to other human beings, pets, or objects?

Habit-forming in humans is reflexive. We change ourselves and our environment in order to attain maximum comfort and well being. It is the effort that goes into these adaptive processes that forms a habit. The habit is intended to prevent us from constant experimenting and risk taking. The greater our well being, the better we function and the longer we survive.

Actually, when we get used to something or to someone – we get used to ourselves. In the object of the habit we see a part of our history, all the time and effort that we put into it. It is an encapsulated version of our acts, intentions, emotions and reactions. It is a mirror reflecting back at us that part in us, which formed the habit. Hence, the feeling of comfort: we really feel comfortable with our own selves through the agency of the object of our habit.

Because of this, we tend to confuse habits with identity. If asked WHO they are, most people will resort to describing their habits. They will relate to their work, their loved ones, their pets, their hobbies, or their material possessions. Yet, all of these cannot constitute part of an identity because their removal does not change the identity that we are seeking to establish when we enquire WHO someone is. They are habits and they make the respondent comfortable and relaxed. But they are not part of his identity in the truest, deepest sense.

Still, it is this simple mechanism of deception that binds people together. A mother feels that her offspring are part of her identity because she is so used to them that her well being depends on their existence and availability. Thus, any threat to her children is interpreted to mean a threat on her Self. Her reaction is, therefore, strong and enduring and can be recurrently elicited.

The truth, of course, is that her children are a part of her identity in a superficial manner. Removing them will make her a different person, but only in the shallow, phenomenological sense of the word. Her deep-set, true identity will not change as a result. Children do die at times and their mother does go on living, essentially unchanged.

But what is this kernel of identity that I am referring to? This immutable entity which is the definition of who we are and what we are and which, ostensibly, is not influenced by the death of our loved ones? What is so strong as to resist the breaking of habits that die hard?

It is our personality. This elusive, loosely interconnected, interacting, pattern of reactions to our changing environment. Like the Brain, it is difficult to define or to capture. Like the Soul, many believe that it does not exist, that it is a fictitious convention. Yet, we know that we do have a personality. We feel it, we experience it. It sometimes encourages us to do things – at other times, as much as prevents us from doing them. It can be supple or rigid, benign or malignant, open or closed. Its power lies in its looseness. It is able to combine, recombine and permute in hundreds of unforeseeable ways. It metamorphizes and the constancy of its rate and kind of change is what gives us a sense of identity.

Actually, when the personality is rigid to the point of being unable to change in reaction to changing circumstances, we say that it is disordered. A personality disorder is the ultimate misidentification. The individual mistakes his habits for his identity. He identifies himself with his environment, taking behavioral, emotional, and cognitive cues exclusively from it. His inner world is, so to speak, vacated, inhabited, as it were, by the apparition of his True Self.

Such a person is incapable of loving and of living. He is incapable of loving because to love (at least according to our model) is to equate and collate two distinct entities: one's Self and one's habits. The personality disordered sees no distinction. He is his habits and, therefore, by definition, can only rarely and with an incredible amount of exertion, change them. And, in the long term, he is incapable of living because life is a struggle towards, a striving, a drive at something. In other words: life is change. He who cannot change, cannot live.

by Dr. Sam Vaknin

Low Yat

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Today was such a tiring day. I hate going to shopping complexs during weekends as there are so many people which makes it so stuffy and crowded. Left the house at about 1pm to Low Yat Plaza in KLwith family to get the necessary computer accessories such as webcam, pendrive, mic. Apart from that, I bought 6 DVDs which are King Kong, Real Madrid the Movie, Zorro, Kungfu Mahjong 2, The Descent and Memoirs of Geisha. I wanted to buy mp3 songs to bring over to India but no shops were selling it, wonder why. Then we had lunch in Shukudo which is a jap fused other asians delight. I had Tom Yam and nearly it nearly killed me coz it was too spicy. Then we went over to Sungai Wang to jalan-jalan.
Came back around 4.30 and was trying out the items i bought to make sure they are working. All worked and then i watched 2 DVDs...Real Madrid the Movie and Kung Fu Mahjong 2.
Now i am burning CDs which i am going to bring over to my future Uni...mostly songs.

Alvin's 19th birthday

2006-02-19T06:50:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the birthday of a friend of mine since kindergarten, Alvin. The party was held in his house where we had steamboat and pizza for dinner, and some sort of mango juice he was TRYING to make but it was tasteless. Then we watched the football match of MU vs Liverpool. I did not support any team as i don't like both of it but was jz hoping for more action. Half time came and we took out the cards and started off wif blackjack. Ppl took time to warm up as we started from RM1, RM 2, RM5 to RM10 and to finally RM20!! We continued playing cards until the Bolton vs West Ham match started and then we started playing poker....
All in I won RM60 only and Jason u still owe me 10!! very happy coz didnt play much during CNY!! Then around 11.30 i drove home...

Blog Blog Blog

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This is my first time creating my own blog to record the journey of my life starting from this day onwards (18th February 2006). The reason why I decided to start blogging is coz i want to look back on my life and recall the fragments of my past memories. As time passes, memories fade and start to wane from our minds as new thoughts replace them. So therefore i will make my life more meaningful so tat it looks presentable on this blog!

Steps of Relaxation Meditation

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Sit comfortably with your spine reasonably straight.
Allow your eyes to rest comfortably downward, gazing softly, but not focussed on anything.
Without closing your eyes completely, let your eyelids drop to a level that feels most comfortable.
Continue gazing downward... the act of gazing is your primary focus (rather than the area at which you are gazing). You may notice your breathing becoming more rhythmic.
It's ok to let your attention drift a bit. If your eyes become very heavy, it's ok to let them close. If you notice you've come out of your relaxed space, simply bring your attention back to your relaxed downward gaze.

My Life

Success

i dont wanna miss a thing...

Chill la ppl...

What does Nike say?

Laws of Success

The Stupidest Thing To Do...

End Pt trip PART 2

Survey

Upset...

Your Value...

Plan

Pussycat boys!!!

Topless in Physio prac..

Never ever give up...

A lesson from End Point....

Current Situation

Mixed Feelings

Wisdom from Patch

Anyone can be a dr.!

Closer and Closer...

Dream Cars

Mazda RX8 Picture

Nissan 350Z Picture

How Abnormal Are I?

Your Deadly Sins

Your Deadly Sins

Future!

Academic Goals

Patch Adams

MY DREAM

Work

Mistakes

NO More Procrastination!!!

Centering

Steps of Energy Healing Meditation

Meditation / Relaxation

A Way to Trigger Self-Confidence

Winners...

The Simplest Formula for Success

Before doing anything....

ABC

To Achieve Your Dreams,Remember Your ABCs

by Wanda Carter

5 Steps To Change Any Habit

The Habit of Identity

Low Yat

Alvin's 19th birthday

Blog Blog Blog

Steps of Relaxation Meditation

To Achieve Your Dreams,
Remember Your ABCs